August 14, 2007 was the most emotional time of my life even to this date. When the surgeon walked in early in the morning to explain how the day was planned out he was so cold and matter of fact which didn't help put me at ease at all. He explained that my sister in law Veronica would be taken in first and then after she was prepped they would come back and take Edgar back,it was going to be a long day Edgar's portion taking the longest. As every moment passed I got a sicker feeling in my stomach I was terrified of being away from Edgar for so long without knowing what was going on. Edgar and I held hands until it was time for him to be taken away but I don't remember us talking much other then to say how much we love each other. Edgar was extremely nervous as excepted so the Dr. gave him something to relax him which kicked in as they were rolling him down the hallway, still holding hands Edgar left me with tears in my eyes and laughter coming out of my mouth because he was so "high" this is something I still make fun of him about. When I got to the waiting room I remember walking up to my brother in law Gilbert (Veronica's husband) and we just gave each other a big hug. My Mom , my brother Danny and his then girlfriend sat with me the entire day but I don't really recall much other then staring at the clock and crying. I do remember having a conversation with Gilbert at one point during the day in which he told me something I will never forget, he told me if his daughter grow up to be half the woman I was he would be extremely proud, I took this as his way of telling me he admired my strength. This meant the world to me and was something I really needed to hear from him especially on this day. We were both so scared and worried about our loved ones and we tried our best to comfort each other in our own way. The Dr. finally came in to talk to Gilbert and tell him everything with Veronica went great and he would be able to go back to see her as soon as she was out of recovery then he told me they had began working on Edgar. When Gilbert was called back to see Veronica I wanted to run back there with him and see how she was but I also knew they needed their time together. As the time was passing I was worried the Dr. would come in and ask me about having to put in the permanent catheter but luckily that never happened after SEVERAL hours the Dr. did come in but to tell me everything went perfect and I would be taking back to see Edgar soon. When I was finally able to go back to see Edgar I wasn't prepared for what I was about to see, over the past 9 months Edgar had been in and out of the hospital but he had never been in ICU or hooked up to so many machines. He wasn't fully alert so I just kissed his cheek and held his hand until he woke up. I remember him smiling at me an instantly asking how his sister was. We still had a long recovery rode ahead of us but we both knew the worst was over with and we would be able to rebuild our live together.
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