At this moment 8 years ago I was sitting at McAllen Medical Hospital with my husband, his sister, and brother preparing ourselves for a life changing event...... My husband's operation to get a new kidney which he was receiving from his sister Veronica. We were all filled with a hundred different emotions topping the chart was fear because we truly didn't know what to expect or what the outcome would be. We all tried to joke around my sister in law even had me take pictures of her giving a "tour" or her hospital room as we posed for a group picture you can see from the looks on all of our faces how we felt. Edgar was extremely quiet and I had no way of knowing how to comfort him but I tried. As the nurses came in and out with information our heads became to spin , once Veronica went to her room to try to get some rest. The doctor came in to answer questions we had and give us as much information as possible. They still didn't know the exact cause for Edgar's kidney failure but they were hoping to know more once they got him on the operating table. The doctor informed Edgar and myself that there was a possibility that the damage to his Ureter was so severe they would have to put in a permanent catheter in order to prevent the new kidney from failing. Since they wont know if this was needed until after Edgar was being operated on it would be my call whether we went in this direction if needed. Once the doctor left the room Edgar immediately told me under no circumstances did he want to live his life with a permanent catheter. So on top of already being scared of losing the love of my life I was then worried that I would have to make a decisions that Edgar wont agree with in order to save his life. That night neither of us sleep we continued to joke around when we weren't crying and we just laid in the hospital bed holding each other. Even though we were scared we were hope full for the light at the end of the horrible tunnel and grateful for the miracle that was about to happen.
In 2006 my husband was diagnosed with Kidney Failure that was a life changing event for both of us, though I didn't go through the physical part everyday I go through the emotional. Everyday I wake up and thank God for giving me another day with the love of my life and for watching over him as he continues to stay healthy and strong. Everyday I have a fear that that could all change but quickly move on because I have faith that we will continue to be blessed but I will always be extremely protective of my husband and emotional when it comes to his health because of what we have gone through. I am sure this is how everyone who has a loved one who has suffered or does suffer from a life changing illness feels. People who have not gone through this experience should feel lucky that they do not understand this feeling. With that being said I also have anger, lots of anger because of the Health "Care" business, and this is what I deal with on a constant basis. I am not a pol
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